Still here. In fact, not going very far

I’m not the story you’re looking for, but in the interest of making available, to you, an alternate view, I will share mine. It’s worth a try because I keep having this hope that the current paradigm of one sidedness will shift. 

I am a tax paying Canadian who despite living a clean and super healthy life, got a vaccine injury in 2009’s H1N1 vaccination initiative that has completely taken my ‘normal’ life away. I now have a deadly (unless on constant chemo, blood thinners, etc), incurable disease that was in fact mentioned in the H1N1 monograph as a rare potential negative side effect. I worked for Parks Canada, biked almost every day in summer, skied almost every day in winter, ate organic home made food, was a new mother, volunteered in my community, voted for our liberal government. I was you. And then I wasn’t. 

Since then, I haven’t been able to get a vaccine as my body’s immune system takes the signals from a vaccine for an increased immune response, can’t stop itself, and then goes after my own body. In my case, my vasculature (I have Wegener’s Granulomatosis, a type of Vasculitis). My daughter, who was just over 3 years old when I got sick, lived through having to say goodbye to her mother, for ever, more than once, and carries a significant amount of PTSD from seeing what a vaccine injury can do to a family and a person’s life. She also chose not to get the vaccine, especially since my diagnosis, we’ve learned that autoimmunity has two factors that are completely, certainly known… 1. there is a genetic predisposition, and 2. there is a trigger. For me that trigger was the vaccine. For her, she doesn’t want to find out if her genetics lean more toward me or toward her dad. Her dad is vaccinated, and he has had 3 shots. (I feel I can share that since personal medical privacy went out the window when our governments insisted on QR codes to be scanned by any host or hostess working at any eating establishment, or business letting people in.)

My kid and I are now both stripped of our chartered right to mobility, for the government described ‘selfish’ act of our legally and ethically described right to informed consent. The narrative has gotten so divisive that I can’t even have a reasonable conversation with anyone who is hard core pro vaccine and against self determination/choice (but most of them are pro-choice in other matters). We are to ‘follow the science’ but then are mocked for looking up the science, in essence saying that the only acceptable ‘science’ is that coming from government agents or our one sided media. 

Both my daughter and I had Covid in March. It was brought home by one of the two vaccinated people in our home, and everyone went through it. My mom, living with us since dad passed in 2020 (not of Covid, he got cancer) was the first to get it, and went through it the hardest. My husband, also vaccinated, went through about a week of feeling horrible, and he’s been fine since. I was told by my rheumatologist to get the monoclonal antibody treatment as I’m on heavy duty immune suppressing drugs, so I did so. My entire covid infection lasted 8 days from first symptom, to testing negative. I got the treatment on day 5, and was already feeling much better at the time. My daughter, now 15, was sick for about 5-6 days, and it was no worse than a regular flu. Her and I still can’t travel on a plane, train or boat. I can’t get a vaccine for 3 months after monoclonal antibody treatment (as per instructions), and they recommend that you don’t get vaccinated for two months after infection, so she can’t get one either, although she will not regardless. But we’re still denied our chartered right to mobility, while Canada lets anyone coming in to move about freely without testing, despite knowing that 96+% of vaccinated people who test positive are asymptomatic carriers. 

Before the vaccine we were all in this together. We were doing all of our safety efforts to ‘protect the vulnerable’ (hint: I’m that part of the population). Once the vaccine came out, and our government made it mandatory, the whole ‘protect the vulnerable’ and ‘we’re all in this together’ talking points took a long walk off a short pier. The vaccinated became the ‘hero’ and the unvaccinated, according to our Prime Minister, became a ‘waste of space’.

I’ve gone through a lot in my life. I’ve come through it all super positive (I started a foundation after diagnosis, and created an annual event to raise awareness for autoimmune disease – this site has the archives to show you if you’re interested), and I’ve always looked at the bright side of any hard situation. Our government has broken me over this. I’ve never felt so alone, so helpless, so discarded by those meant to support and protect me as I do today. I regret my life long support of liberal government, and liberal narratives, because now I see it’s all about virtue signalling and they don’t actually mean what they say. I hate the right of centre and their close mindedness, but I feel totally and completely betrayed by the left, and I can’t see myself fitting anywhere in this society right now. It’s really the saddest time of my entire life (and I was an immigrant kid who spent time in an Austrian prison and refugee camp, while escaping communism, who came to Canada without English and hat to fit in with my two outfits I came with, who was told to make my final arrangements when they misdiagnosed me with terminal cancer before I got my Wegener’s diagnosis, and many other things….) but now they’ve broken me.

The 85% of you who are vaccinated, don’t even know these rights are still kept from tax paying Canadians, because this blatant disregard for humans isn’t affecting you personally, and the media, including our local paper, refuse to let you know. I hear and see it all the time. If I feel comfortable enough with someone to mention this, they’re always wide eyed, at first telling me it can’t be true, then realizing they don’t actually know if it is or not… looking it up and going silent. Let me tell you from personal experience. It is true. Everything these days is tribal. Tribal to the left, and tribal to the right, and I fear that common decency, rational thought, and compassion, have completely abandoned our society. The right talk about themselves and fuck everyone else, the left talk about protecting ‘the vulnerable’ while literally giving the vulnerable the finger. Humanity is really sucking nowadays, and we’re devolving at an epic pace. And we have a prime minister who is testing how much he can get away with, and you 85% are letting him get away with far too much. He wont listen to me, remember, I’m a waste of space in his eyes, but he might listen to you heroes. Be a hero for more than rolling up a sleeve.

“Follow the science” ~ but only if it’s presented by a governing entity, and for God’s sake, don’t read any yourself

They hypocrisy of the day is stanky. The same people who tell you to ‘follow the science’ are the ones who post memes saying idiotic things like, ‘he died doing his own science’. So I’ve been curious what they conceive as ‘following the science’ in their mind. Is it blindly following what our governments are telling us is science, or does it actually involve reading anything scientific? Because if it’s not the latter, the ‘follow the science’ mantra should be changed to a ‘follow what your government tells you’ mantra.

Let’s look at some science from our Alberta Healthcare Covid website. Considering how many Albertans are sick with Covid, and how only those at risk are able to get PCR tests, the current numbers are pretty much null and void. The only numbers that can be legit right now are those of current hospitalizations, and those for vaccinations. I will spend this post looking at these two stats, and how they’re manipulated/presented to keep the average ‘follower of science’ from seeing the real picture, and the Nathans and Kathys of the world blindly arguing non arguments to support the manipulation.

Below is a screenshot of the most current hospitalizations. (Please note the second note below the table. Makes it hard to take things very seriously when in fact the table does include those with one dose – maybe they meant 4 doses, but the percentages do equal 100%, so…. maybe they’re combining 3 and 4 doses into the 3 dose row, who knows, but this is what happens when government tries to play science)

To make more sense of this we also need to look at the vaccination numbers so that we can relate them to the hospitalization numbers.

I was going to mention that the number for 2 doses in this is actually less than what it was two days ago, which raises some red flags, but then a table further down shows the real number (which is now higher than two days ago, but once again erodes trust that this is a competent representation of fact)

As I said earlier, this is the data that is presented to Albertans for digestion, but it is presented in such a way that makes the consumer of the data need to do more work. Also look at the number for three doses on the two tables, also different (we are looking at the ALL row on the second table and for the purpose of this exercise, I’ll use the second table as it appears more accurate – as all the numbers are going up, and it also gives us the total population to work from)

Let’s break down the numbers so that they more accurately portray the sub groups of vaccination status. We know that the Alberta population is 4,420,039. We know that 3,588,396 Albertans have had at least one dose of the vaccine. That leaves 831,643 Albertans who are NOT vaccinated. We also know that 74,947 Albertans have had a fourth dose. So based on those knowns, we can do a little grade school math and come up with each group’s numbers.

Actual numbers per vaccination status group

  • Unvaccinated: 831,643
  • 1 Dose: 191,802
  • 2 Dose: 1,750,318
  • 3 Dose: 1,571,329
  • 4 Dose: 74,947

Now we can do some math to show what’s important. Let’s look at current hospitalizations based on these numbers per 100,000 of their own group.

Hospitalization per 100,000 based on vaccine status

  • Unvaccinated: 254/831,643 X 100,000 = 30.54 Albertans per 100K
  • 1 Dose: 41/191,802 X 100,000 = 21.37 Albertans per 100K
  • 2 Doses: 333/1,750,318 X 100,000 = 19.03 Albertans per 100K
  • 3 Doses: 592/1,571,329 X 100,000 = 37.68 Albertans per 100K

I’ve also looked at the death rates and when you look at the death rates of people without any pre-existing conditions, the argument for vaccination with a technology that was previously used only in cases of extreme disease with minimal alternative options, the argument completely disintegrates. Let’s have a look.

In this case they really don’t have the one dose stats, but we can again do the math. The only issue is we don’t get to see the breakout of pre-existing condition vs no condition of the one dose deaths. There were 32 deaths for patients with one dose of the vaccine, but again we can’t break that one down. Let’s do the best we can with what we are given and figure out the per 100K rate of deaths based on vaccination status.
(Side Note:) I am making an inference on the condition vs no condition for the one dose group, based on an average of the difference of the other three groups. That average difference is .06, which brings us to 30 with condition and 2 without.

Deaths per 100,000 based on vaccine status WITH pre-existing condition

  • Unvaccinated: 237/831,643 X 100,000 = 28.50
  • 1 Dose: 30/191,802 X 100,000 = 15.64
  • 2 Doses: 238/1,750,318 X 100,000 = 13.60
  • 3 Doses: 386/1,571,329 X 100,000 = 24.57

Deaths per 100,000 based on vaccine status with NO pre-existing conditions

  • Unvaccinated: 25/831,643 X 100,000 = 3.0
  • 1 Dose: 2/191,802 X100,000 = 1.04
  • 2 Doses: 17/1,750,318 X 100,000 = 0.97
  • 3 Doses: 10/1,571,329 X 100,000 = 0.64

The above numbers are per 100,000 Albertans. Are these numbers really worth the cost of vaccinating every single one of us? Are they worth eliminating chartered freedoms from those who have chosen to forego vaccines, for whatever reason they have (informed consent being a legal and ethical right of every single patient in Canada). I think not.

Last but not least, check out the table of hospitalizations on their website in real living colour. It doesn’t paint a pretty picture of current hospitalizations based on vaccination status. My point isn’t to make anyone feel bad about their choices, just as I wish others wouldn’t do that to me, or worse yet keep my chartered freedoms from me as a punishment for said choices. The point is to promote a more informed populace that questions our government, and doesn’t just digest anything they throw at us as gospel. It isn’t so. Our media, whose job it is to hold government accountable, is failing their duties in an epic way.

Ask questions. Inform yourself. Don’t just blindly follow what you’re told to do because it comes from government. They have their own motives, and based on the above data, it doesn’t have much to do with our health or reality.

The dehumanizing of the unvaccinated

I got a vaccine injury in 2009 from the H1N1 vaccine and have not been able to get vaccinated since I made the connection (it almost killed me the first time, with a known potential but rare side effect, Vasculitis, and in my case Wegener’s Granulomatosis) but I was so into ensuring that I survived that in my fight to live, I didn’t make the connection at first. I did however make the connection when I had a booster, and my world, once again, fell apart and I had to spend another five years coming back from the brink of death. I have therefore not gotten vaccinated during this pandemic, as the risk benefit ratio is not in my favour, and I have paid a very steep price for this very personal decision. I, however, am lucky because I can get an exemption. My daughter who was 3 years old when I first got sick in 2009, has seen first hand how a vaccine injury can wreak havoc in a family including the many times she came to a hospital to say good bye to me, she does not have the opportunity to get a medical exemption. I believe she has some significant PTSD from our family’s experience, and will not get a vaccine because of that. We are both not allowed to get on an airplane, a train or a boat and travel – move freely – in our own country, a right afforded to us in the Charter of Rights, but taken away by a government that is not proactive, but fully reactive to social media pressures, and vote hunting.

As of April 1st, 2022, we are allowing people that are vaccinated to come into Canada via airplane without showing negative Covid results, but as we have all seen over the last few months, vaccinated people are just as much carriers/transmitters of Covid, yet a little more dangerous as they can go through it asymptomatic, while passing it around. In the United Kingdom, there are currently 4.9 million cases of Covid, and they have 9 out of 10 people vaccinated. So 90% of their population can come here and spread the virus, but I, a Canadian, who has paid into the Canadian social web for decades, who has had the disease, who has been treated with monoclonal antibodies (which means that even if I wanted to, I can’t get a vaccine for another three months) can’t travel on an airplane. How does this even make sense? My daughter has had the disease, and despite all the scare narratives, went through it with no more discomfort than a regular flu and is fully on the other side of it now. But she can’t travel either. 

I know that this is not top of mind because in Canada, as of April 1, 2022, 89% of Canadians over 5 years of age have had 1 dose of the vaccination, and 85% of the population over 5 years old is fully vaccinated. Their rights weren’t stripped from them, so they like to argue with me that I can travel freely, but they are wrong… according to the government website, nothing has changed for the unvaccinated. We are small minority of only 15% of the population, however that 15% when translated into real humans comes to 5,824,500 people that have been discarded by our government. Even a fraction of that number would make a pretty significant class action lawsuit, so I’m sending this out to potential class action oriented law firms (I’ve only sent one out now, but if they don’t answer I’m going full steam ahead). Our government is always just looking at re-electibility, which is why this 15% of the population means nothing to them, but they’re using our Charter of Rights and Freedoms as toilet paper and undoubtedly this seemingly small act is a litmus test of how far they can go in stripping rights and freedoms away under the guise of ‘good for the all’ narrative. Vaccinated people have forgotten what it feels like to be handcuffed by your government because said government is using our freedom of mobility as a manipulative tactic to enforce their will on the people: In the process completely disregarding the fact that a vaccine is a medical procedure, and as such, every patient has a legal and ethical right to informed consent or denial.

I hope this sparks enough outrage in whoever reads this, despite their feelings on the merits of vaccine mandates, that you can do something for the more than 5 Million people shackled by a heartless, flacid government. 

Politics is not part of this discussion because both sides of the political spectrum are downright nuts right now. We’ve been left option-less, but maybe something as crazy as accountability, where it hurts, can at least remedy the cruel, ruthless pandering our current regime has engaged in since the vaccines came out to play. Somebody please hold them accountable. 

Thank you for your time, and I hope that this leads to something life changing for people who feel like there is no hope or decency left in our institutions and those of us who feel like we’re yesterday’s garbage in the eyes of our elected officials. 

I pray, and I’m not a big prayer, but I have nothing left. 


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